Clocks

This picture was taken during the Java Jazz Festival and I'm so in love with Mr Jason Mraz. gosh, he look so cool. I kept dancing and screaming his name. haha. I don't really care what people think about me screaming and dancing like a drunk person, yeah whatever!

It has been day 'till something happend to me. It was a horrible feelings and yeah regret came after that. I'm stil trying to cope it all and try to forget about the things, what that person said to me, what that person did to me, and so on. It's like time flies so fast and I have to move on. I can't be in a position that always depends on somebody. No ofcourse not! yet I try to make a change in myself. i haven't decide it yet, maybe physically or my character.

Maybe i'm not the prettiest girl or the smartest or the up-to-date kindda girl or maybe I'm not those girls who goes to the beauty saloon every week to get their hair fix. I'm not ok! I'm not the person who likes jazz music, I don't like clubbing. I like indie music i love going to art exibition and dancing to some weird music. fuck, i hate when somebody make a difference with other girls. I hate it, I repeat. I HATE IT!

So whatever. I'll go find somebody new and I won't try to be pretty. especially for you! yeah not for you! I hate you and your fuckin comments about me.

I'm sorry for you guys who is stil reading this part of my blog. I'm trying to give out what I feel during this past few day. It has been so shitty and I felt ashame of myself.

PS : To all girls who are reading this and have the same situation as mine, please do remember. You are what you are! You are pretty in your own way! Don't give a damn about what people or what you boyfriens said about other girls.

And to a him, whom made me feel this way and wrote this silly nonsense feelings, please...NGACA LO!(English : Look in the mirror!)

Love

azt