Blessed the tainted heart

I wish my Holga results pictures would turn out to be like this.

lately i've been really busy with school stuff, especially this week I got a lot stuff and projects deadline.
I am really looking forward for this four days of holidays which turn out i need to finish my IT project as well. (sigh)
hmm what else can I say? I've been listening to Pintu Terlarang Soundtrack and I think the music was really good. The artist and the bands who contributed in this sountrack are Tika, Sore, and Mantra.
I really like Tika's voice, as always men. She sounds like an oldies singer with an attitude.
Sore, it's my first time to hear this band. an... I LOVE IT!the title is Nancy Bird. very pretty song.
Matra is the new band that was made by Zeke from Zeke and The popo.
all of them, I mean all of them sounded very extraordinary! but I don't like score from the movie. it really sounded creepy. I was listening it in the middle of the night or mprning? cause it was in 2 o'clock in the morning while I was doing my homework. when the first track of the score came up, i got a little goose bumps. creepy..

Ps : something about Fachri Albar taht made me go.. gaga.







love
azt

Clocks

This picture was taken during the Java Jazz Festival and I'm so in love with Mr Jason Mraz. gosh, he look so cool. I kept dancing and screaming his name. haha. I don't really care what people think about me screaming and dancing like a drunk person, yeah whatever!

It has been day 'till something happend to me. It was a horrible feelings and yeah regret came after that. I'm stil trying to cope it all and try to forget about the things, what that person said to me, what that person did to me, and so on. It's like time flies so fast and I have to move on. I can't be in a position that always depends on somebody. No ofcourse not! yet I try to make a change in myself. i haven't decide it yet, maybe physically or my character.

Maybe i'm not the prettiest girl or the smartest or the up-to-date kindda girl or maybe I'm not those girls who goes to the beauty saloon every week to get their hair fix. I'm not ok! I'm not the person who likes jazz music, I don't like clubbing. I like indie music i love going to art exibition and dancing to some weird music. fuck, i hate when somebody make a difference with other girls. I hate it, I repeat. I HATE IT!

So whatever. I'll go find somebody new and I won't try to be pretty. especially for you! yeah not for you! I hate you and your fuckin comments about me.

I'm sorry for you guys who is stil reading this part of my blog. I'm trying to give out what I feel during this past few day. It has been so shitty and I felt ashame of myself.

PS : To all girls who are reading this and have the same situation as mine, please do remember. You are what you are! You are pretty in your own way! Don't give a damn about what people or what you boyfriens said about other girls.

And to a him, whom made me feel this way and wrote this silly nonsense feelings, please...NGACA LO!(English : Look in the mirror!)

Love

azt

I smoke fags

listen up. I'm a mess and unpredictable.

I don't feel like taking a bath.

I don't feel like doing exercies.

I don't feel like doing my homework.

I just want to make love with my camera.

I just wanna run away with my Ipod.

I just wanna drink weird juice.

please, i'm just a human being. stop this nonsense.

ps : I miss one of my best friend. I don't hate you, I don't wanna hurt you. please, where are you?

love,

azt