good news for me! agaiinnn

wahh kmarenn gue dpt kbr GEMBIRA dari UPh. guys, gue ktrima d UPH!! omg, gue sng beth... gue tkt gue emg bnran gagg ktrima. tp ternyata resultnya gue ktrima. hahaha. my parents were so happy and so proud of me (well they told me that).


klo kyk gini caranya, tendency untuk gue mls skolah tetep aja ada. mlah mungkin lbh mls. hahahaha. ahhh kuliah kuliah... gue pngn kuliah...

btw, gue lg sng lagunay arctic monkeys... yg judulnya "Bakery". lucuu d, it's kind romantic gitu..kyk mereka tuh ketemu d bakery dan the girl supposed to do things that the boy could see.. ini part of the lyrics

I wish you would have smiled in the bakery

or sat on a tatty seateeat

a mutual friends gathering

and the more you keep on looking

the more it's hard to take

love we're in stalemate

to never meet is surely where we're bound

there's one in every townjust there to grind you down

I wish I would have seen you in the post office

well maybe I did and I missed it

too busy with the mind on clever lines

why not the rounders pitch or the canteen

you're slacking love were have you been

just have to go and wait until tonight

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! bagusbagus! dengerin d dengerin and his accent was so british-ish! hahhaa.

love

azt

Dea's bday was a blast

so last saturday i went to dea's bday. it was quite fun i actually dance with the mc. hahaha. i know right, it was embarassing! but i didn't care.. hahaha i had fun anyway. i took some pictures... so go on browse it.. muach muach

Nata and her hiding face style

kenapa muka kyk gitu Tuhan????

hahahahhaa. retaa lucuu. hahahaa.

cieee dea.. dea is the bday girl....hahahaha

love

azt

astari is mentally ill

it's not that i'm crazy, but things go out of hand with my mind.
on tuesday night, i wasn't feeling happy. i'm feeling unsecured and lonely. i felt that no body wants me and they doesnt't care about me. gue gagg tw how it starts, tp yg jls it all started with a mother fuckin guy that made me feel like shit.

gue gagg mw kedengaran kyk cry baby or watever, tp yg jls yg gue pngn lakuin adalah nangis sederas derasnya. i hate him so much for being cruel and making me feel awful. bisa juga sih ini bukan salah dia. mungkin dari guenya. tp when he texted me, i felt his emotion of "you are useless, fuck off!"

my god, i felt soooo angry. i did something that releases my anger which maybe some people will do if the got angry and sad.

i have to talk to somebody that night. i need a support and encouragement. so texted je..

"je, lagi ngapain?"

trus dia bls...

"lagi ngerjain bi ast, gue lembur nii"

i realised that she was busy. so i find another people. tara.

she's a sweet heart and her support gave me a little boost.

so here is the message from her...

"If God put u to it He will make u thru it. i always 1 step behind you stef 2 support u in everything you do!!"

then she gave me a quote from Blake Lively, Gossip Girl.

"If you ever want something badly, let it go. If it comes back to you then its yours forever. If it doesn't then it was never yours to begin with"

after i read that quotes, i believe that God will give me things that are awesome for me. after a few days, i forgot about him, i throw all my troubles away.

TARA, THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT DEAR. YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY. I LOVE YA!

ps: my mock exam suck so bad. my dad and i decide that i just take certificate. i 'm no good in all of the subject.

love,

azt

good news for me!

something surprise me on wednesday afternoon yg ngebuat gue... really.... HAPPY!
so here it goes........
pas gue plng skolah hari rabu gue ud berencana untuk naik speda itung" biar gue skalian sehat dan ngurusin badan. hehehehe.
nahhh, pas gue slese ganti baju dari seragam jdi tshirt and short pants, gue check hp gue. yaa spa tau ada sms or apa gtuuuu...
pas gue ngeliat hp ada sms... then i looked at it dari siapa smsny.. ternyata dari Mr. Sweet! ooo gosh.. I was jumping like a little girl and kindda triak kecil"an kyk cewek" di chick flick gtu. hahahhahahahahah. soooo stupid.
jdi gini isinya....

"As, this morning I had a dream about you"

hah? wat wat wat? gue baca ulang dahh tuh smsnya. for like 3 times. buseeettt... jarang" dya sms gue. mimpiin gue lagi! kann aneh aja gtu.

trus gue bls lahh

"oo ya? mimpi apa tuh, if I may know.. hhe"

trus gue tinggal donkk hpe gue. lanjut gue naik speda soalny ud sore gtuu dan matahari lagii indah"nya. gue seneng ngeliat ilalang" yg ada d dket" rmh gue. serasa di film laskar pelangi. hee. blh donkk skali" gue ngerasa kyk main pilem. hehe. maksud gue film.

pas gue balik... gue langsung bru" lihat hp gue. hasilnya.............. nihil. dya gagg bls. oo well, maybe later.

ternyata stelah gue tunggu berjam" gagg d bls! gosh... i was kindda upset a little bit. i can't be upset to him, he's mr sweet for godsake!

nah pagi"nya.. gue k skolah. still waiting for his sms. akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

dia bales.

he said he was sorry gag bls kmaren gara" dy ngelamun. buakkakaka. so cuttee.. then he told me his dream and everything. i supposed it's secret i won't exposed it. sorry.

but, gue bnr" seneng... he really made my day. it's amazing that i simple sms for mr sweet could made my day. it's the funniest thing.

"GOSH MR SWEET... WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?"

love

azt

tutututtrutututrurr

I felt very crappy today

i just want to throw stuff and burn them

i wanna play a hardcore guitar and bang my head like those metal dudes

i wanna scream as oud as i could!

i wanna jump around like in those concert

i wanna

i wanna

i wanna

i wanna

BE FREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

btw..

i'm not a pee wee gaskin fan

but i do like their song

*psssttt... i kindda like one of the guy in pee wee gaskin*

in this is their video that make me wanna jump and sing a long

help me to forget my troubles and everything...

Check them out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R97GDW0aNDU

do i look normal?do i FEEL normal?

Sometimes i feel very weird and my mood is up and down. I got very mellow sometimes, i got very angry.

is this a normal thing that a girl do? puberty, that's what people call right? 

i felt lonely right now.. i felt that i want to do some EXTRAORDINARY things that people will said,"Dude, is she crazy?"

oo yeah..! i do like to do some unusual stuff. sometimes i don't care what people think or said. 

i need encouragement too! i need to feel comfortable and welcome.

honestly, i really want to go to college as soon as possible. I can't stand school and my teenager drama in my everyday life. it suck! i wanna go to places where i could i say,"thank GOD! i don't need to live my fuckin life...for awhile".

i got math mock exam tomorrow, i'm not ready. i hate math! it's stupid and unbelievable. 

i know, i complain a lot. well, i have a complaining character. it release my thoughts.

i miss mr sweet. i miss talking and hanging out with him.

love

azt

who made my world? protect me

"So don't let anyone scare you You know that I'll protect you, always Now through the thick and thin"

- Metrostation, Kelsey -

i wish somebody said to me like this....

love

azt

aduuu gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

GUE NGELINDIS KAKI KUCING

omg.. gue gagg tw gue ngelindis. i felt so guilty..

jdi gini, gue lgi drive from dinner sama je, greta, ama tara. trus otw k rmh gue, d jln gue ngerasa ngelindes sesuatu. i thought it was small rocks. ternyataa pas je liat ke blakang..... ADA KUCING LGI GULING - GULING!!

aduu sumpah. it was the guiltiest moment of my life! because i do love animals dan gue gag mw harm them! oo god..

sampe rmh gue blng ama bokap gue soal ngelindes kucing. ini conversationnya :

gue : pa, aku ngelindes kucing...

bokap : ....

gue : pa...

bokap : apa?

gue : AKU NGELINDES KUCING,PA

bokap : hmm.. y da gag papa kok..

ngoookkkkkk! bokap emg gagg ad prasaan.. hahhaha

beda ama nyokap gue

gue : ma, tdi aq ngelindes kucing

nyokap : HAH???? DI MANAA???

gue : ituu.. tdi pas mkn ama je greta.

nyokap : HAHH??? ASTAGAAA... MATI DONKK?

gue : gagg koQ. cmn guling" doank.

nyokap: HAHHHHH???

itu lah bedanya cewek ama cowok.. hahahaha.

btw hpenya greta ilang.. klo ada yg liat ksh tw gue ya! hahaha. *yaa klo lo pda knal c.* hehehee

mw blajar bwt mock.. *hoeeekkkk!* blajar gue serius..

love

azt

after school hang out

after our so called mock try out exams, me and my friends went out (i dunno wat you call it between lunch and dinner). hehe. we went to pizza hut. my friend, cecep*i know, he have this funny sundanese name. teehee*, he wanna give pay for those meal. yeayy!! so i didn't need to bring money. hehehe. everybody loves free stuff aight?
we were talking about this girl, let's just call her ms X. her friends and her boyfriend (who actually looked like a girl, oouuuchh!). hahahha. it was funny and we kindda laugh out loud! then we talked about that teacher's pet girl. she's like penjilat (i dunno in english but yeah in Indonesia we call it that). she's acting nice in front of teachers. it's kindda bitchy!
oo well, some people are different and they have their own thing goin on in them.
OVER ALL...... i had a fun day with my friends. really, it was a BLAST!
you guys should do that too if you want it. sit down with your friends, talking, enjoying the food. you know really enjoyin life! we are young and we are not supposed to feel old and acting weird. have fun you know! laugh, smile, tell a joke, make fun of something, or watever you guys love to do.


tomorrow i'll be having my business exams. cross my fingers, pray to God, study.

I NEED MIRACLE

love

azt